Wednesday, May 25, 2011

True Confessions


If I thought my life would be better by hanging upsidedown from a cat perch, I would try it!
 I have not had health insurance since October ... therefore I have cut corners on necessary medications. I don't want to have a stroke or heart attack so I have been purchasing my blood pressure and cholesterol medication without fail. However in order to get medicated for the month of June, my Doctor insisted I come in for a much needed visit. She asked me today how I was doing. (that was a loaded question).

I began:

~I am unemployed ... and if one more person asks me if I have a job yet. I am going to take them out!
~I'm fat and I am trying so hard to lose weight and it is not coming off! I am doing all the right things, changing my eating habits ... exercising etc .... but the diet gods are just laughing in my face!
~My mother may have her breast cancer back again and facing a double mastectomy
~I had to go to Walmart last night for a personal item ... it was 11:00 pm so it was not crowded but I wanted to destroy anyone or anything that looked at me.
~I really want to slap someone so don't get in my way!
~And if one more of my "adopted" grandma's tells me I never got married because I am fat and I should have bi-pass surgery ... I will punch her in the face!
~I really want to hurt Arnold Schwarzenegger and I don't even know him!
I'll stop now before I get violent!

What my Doctor said:

~I'm sorry you are unemployed ...
~You are probably not going to lose weight very fast because this med and that med that you are already taking is probably hindering that ... it will happen, but it will be very slow
~Have you had a mammogram ... we have a program you can get it done at no cost.
~Wanting to slap people or "take them out" is not a healthy display of emotion so maybe we can prescribe a new anxiety med
~Do these older ladies realize that surgery costs lots of money and has difficult side effects, are they going to pay for it? It may be beneficial for you to hold off keeping their company until further notice.
~Unless you know Arnold personally, let it go....

She prescribed a new med for anxiety ... I'm calling it my happy pill!

AAAAHHHH

4 comments:

Karalee said...

I agree don't associate with the grandma's. Brett's grandma said mean things like that to me when she was alive. I heard the same thing from Dr. Tipton about my meds. I have high blood pressure but the med she wants to put me on for my depression causes weight gain and can increase your blood pressure to rise.

Hang in there and I don't like Arnold either...scum bag.

Elaine K. Weinkauf said...

I'm sorry, Jana! "Been there - done that." I do promise that things will work out the way they are supposed to. Someone reminded me the other day that, during my pre-mortal life, I did agree to these challenges. I do know that's true...but maybe I wasn't listening very well????? Shoulda read the fine print, huh? :o)

Stephen T said...

Dr T is an angel. Wish I was closer so I could go back to her. Keep your chin up~~ we love you just the way you are.

Julie said...

It's difficult to explain to small minded people the problems associated with many of the meds out there that are supposed to help us. I, too, am a size I never wanted to see. In fact, in my head I still look like a size 13. Many people might balk at that, but after my last weigh in at the dr's office I truly would be THRILLED to see that on the tag of my pants or shirt that I am wearing. I probably will never see that number on my tags again. My meds I take to calm my overactive nerves cause weight gain, swelling, dizziness, etc. I'm just grateful I don't have the "leaky stools"!
I have always felt that people need to see past the sweet crunchy outer shell to get to the wonderful chocolate inside of you! Any man would be so blessed to have you as their wife and mother of their children. You are much more prepared for that than I could ever dream of being.
I still think of you telling me you are just holding out for Captain Moroni. It certainly can get lonely while waiting. People do not need to make it worse by pointing out something that is the vey thing we try so hard to deal with every waking hour.
I love and miss you! I pray for you often.